That Right There…Is Poison

You don’t notice what just happened until it has already hit the tip of your tongue.  But, by then, it is already too late.

It’s dangerous.  It’s damaging.  It’s poison.

You don’t realize it, it’s wonderfully disguised.

But just be careful.

You can’t take back anything.

Not words.

Not actions.

And definitely not time.

But, you do always have the future.

The next 5 minutes could even be enough time to change.

Chapter One

Please, please don’t ever forget to do things for yourself.

Don’t forget to love yourself.

Don’t forget to remember yourself.

If you are dealing with more than you think you can handle, eliminate what isn’t necessary in your life.  Chances are you obligate yourself when not needed to.  Do not do that.  That right there…. is poison.

When you need someone to blame, blame yourself.

I have to admit that I have been in a lot of toxic positions with people.  I was younger, and just didn’t know how to extract myself from that kind of stuff.  I just knew how to hang in there.  It was like a bubble that wouldn’t burst.

I think you just keep wishing it will all get better and fix itself.

And it will, but not as easy as it sounds.

What you allow is what will continue.

So that’s when it’s very important to not forget to remember yourself.  You have to always be considered by one important person: you.  You have to put your needs first.  And that’s always a very hard task.  Like, when flying.  When you are told to put the oxygen mask on yourself before helping anyone else, with a picture of a child beside an adult.  Stay with me on this.  I always think “Who would I help first…myself, or someone else first?”  But I try to apply this to my every day life, or in situations with someone or something that I love(d).  I always save you, can I save me first?  Is that ok?

Yes, it’s okay.

Go outside.  Sit.  Think.  Breathe in, breathe out.  Feel, hear, taste, and shiver at the psithurism around you.  I need you to shiver.  I need you to still know you feel, you’re not numb.

If that 6 year relationship isn’t working for you anymore, don’t resist ending it.  Your happiness is so important, you are important.  And if you are in a position you don’t want to be in, then you’re being poisoned.  It will ruin you if it hasn’t already.  Be mentally, emotionally and vocally strong to do what you need to do for yourself.  Don’t restrain yourself for the sake of someone else.  Do what you feel you need to do.  Respect yourself; your mind, and your heart.  Your well-being.  You owe yourself that, I know you do.

And trust me, it will all get better and fix itself from there.

 

Chapter Two

I visit Facebook every day.  I watch, cry, feel for, or laugh at the videos or pictures.  I share inspirational or truthful posts, in my opinion.  I’m an innocent Facebook user.  I try very, very hard to not view the comments beneath those Facebook posts (pictures, videos, quotes, etc.).  I would love to view them to see the amazing, good-heart people share their caring, compassionate, and interesting thoughts.  But I force myself not to because I swear there are more rude, hateful, shaming, embarrassing comments than there are anything else.  That right there….is poison.

I can’t stomach it or tolerate it in the very least.  It makes me sick and angry.  Much more than a Facebook user should feel.  It’s the mean and hurtful comments I see on a picture or about a person that didn’t deserve it.  Every time, it leaves me in disbelief.  You people are poisonous, and are just living to spread it.  I live for good vibes, not bad ones.  JUST CHOOSE LOVE.  It is so much easier!!

There was a time when every time I surfaced Facebook there was a negative post first thing, right off the bat.  Yes, I could unfollow or unfriend where it came from.  But, it’s Facebook.  A virtual world.  A big, massive, virtual world and to get rid of things I didn’t want to see I would have to have no contact list.  I can’t lie about this.  I bet you are on Facebook, I know you know what I’m talking about.  I just really hope you’re not one of those people.  But if you are, I don’t hate you.  I forgive you.  I forgive you because my best expectation is that it isn’t your fault you’ve been poisoned.  My better expectation is that you find yourself and find yourself far away from the negativity.  Do not allow yourself to be that person, and don’t allow yourself to poison someone else.

Don’t leave that mark.

Please make this important.  Because it is.

It is an extreme form of ugliness, and it will greatly alter the way people view or treat you and it could very much impact one’s life to whom you’ve disrespected, in a lot of different ways.  The person you were trying to hurt did most likely see that, your goal.  But it shouldn’t be.  I sometimes see these comments or messages and think to myself why would someone say something like that?  I try to understand it, but I will never.  I will never understand it because I’ve never been in that position, hating something or someone so much that I say something so powerfully painful to degrade it’s meaning.  And although someones opinion of you shouldn’t be so immensely though of, it is.  We can’t take in the good opinions and block out the bad ones.  You can do what you can to place in a less paid attention to part of your brain, but the fact that is that it will still be there.

Let’s change this.  Let’s, at least, try.

Be kind.

 

Chapter Three

Stay positive.  Love, and be loved.

Be healthy in more ways than one.

Don’t be poison(ed).

 

The End.

A.

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